I salute you

Today is Memorial Day,and while many will be having BBQ's and hanging out with friends and family I ask that you take a moment a remember what the true meaning is of this day.

I wanna say THANK YOU x infinity for all that our soldiers past and present and future do for us. With out getting political or debating where we should or should not be I want to thank you all.

A special thanks to my brother and his unit for giving their time when it means being away from their families in order to keep all of ours safe. THANK YOU!

Happy Memorial Day to Everyone!

Shonda your killing me!

I will start off by saying I will not spoil any secrets about Greys's Anatomy but GEEZ Shonda Rhimes what are you ding to me!

I have watched Grey's Anatomy since the beginning. I LOVED IT! I think I quoted the show daily for the first few years. The last few seasons ehh. I still watch but more in a oh its raining out, I am going to be lazy let me catch up on some Greys. I guess when Grey and McDreamy finally figured it out it lost it's mood for me.

The first 3 seasons will be my favorites,but the season finale this year WOW! and to know that I have to wait to see how it turns out...well lets just say Ill be counting down the days.

Pot of what ifs

Life is not always what you plan. I can say mine has not been what I pictured when I was a child.
There are days when I wonder if I had done this or that if things would have been better for me. I think we all do this at times in our life...it just stirs the pot of what ifs.

I grew up in a single parent home. At times things were rough but we survived. I know my mom did her best. I hope that when my daughter is  older she will fee the same about me.


I never really thought of marriage. Marriage, was something other people did.I felt the same about having children. Never planned on having my own.


Reality is now I have a soon to be 11 year old who I adore and would do almost anything for. She drives me crazy in the best of ways and I am sure has made me a better person as I have aged. 

I am still not married and I know some would look down on that but I don't think they always need to go hand and hand. While I understand some people's view point I ask that you don't my choice. Are there times when I think I would like to be married ...sure. I would love to know someone else is paying the bills or going to put away the laundry ( I loathe laundry) but I know plenty of married couple with the same issues lol.  Not being bothers me most when I think that the Kid is missing out on something. 

On those days when the world is crashing in on you and you can not seem to catch a break and your heart is yearning for that hug or kiss ...when your lonely that is when I miss the idea of being married.


My daughter's father and I have a good relationship,that is to say it is functional /dysfunctional.That is truly the best way I can even try to explain us. There are no horrible things hiding in the showers keeping us apart we are just really good friends. I dare say that he is one of my best friends and I can't imagine my without him around. For whatever reason we are just not meant to be a "true family". Our main priority is that our child knows she is loved and that we will always be there for her.


I am sorry for such a heart heavy post. I will blame it on the gloomy weather going on here in NY.


On a happier note, the Kid has been back to school now for 2 weeks and off the crutches for 1. She is healing great.Her resilience to all that we discovered in April amazes me still and makes me smile everyday!